I am very close to be getting a new job. However, this job (so I was told) is in either France or USA. I recieved a call today saying that I would/could stay in either Scotland or East Midlands - just about 100 miles from home.
Now on friday I talked to my friend (female). Normally she wants to know about job opportunities and how I'm doing finding a job. All other times before now she hasn't wanted to talk about me leaving, always changing the subject back to what our days have been like, why are you doing tomorrow %26amp; a few laughing funny comments. This is the first time I've talked to her properly about leaving %26amp; the effects that is having i.e. I've lost some friends I've known for 6+ years coz I'm going away.
She said 'just remember its your life and are them friends always guna be there ?? Nahh probs not and if they can't be happy for you then shows how much of a good mate they are .' She then goes on to say I should give the job a try %26amp; if its not what I want then I can always pull out %26amp; wished me good luck for the future. Told me to do what I want %26amp; just be happy about it but it might take a while to become happy.
Last night I text her, she read the text but didn't reply. Then 2 minutes later she puts on her BlackBerry status 'I don't wanna forget you, I don't even wanna try !!!'
Now I've took time to think %26amp; last night I put on my BlackBerry status 'Wish you could tell me what YOU really want me to do' ... today she put on her BlackBerry status 'Remember what you say coz it'l hurt people .. time to move on and stop wishing coz it'l never happen :) '.
At that point I thought I had my answer, she wasn't going to tell me anything.
I text her tonight saying 'had a good day? .. got a call about the job today, the guy said I'd be goign to Scotland %26amp; East Midlands, not abroad. So not too far away eyy :) '
She replied with 'aww :) '.
Now she had just broken up from a relationship so any of her BlackBerry statuses could be referring to the breakup, I honestly don't know. But after her break up, any text we send eachother there's always a :) in it (or something similar) %26amp; always a :) at the end of texts.
I don't know what to do, any advice? - why the 'aww' text?|||wall of text, did not read|||Well she probably likes you. And even though she likes you, all she wants is for you to be happy|||You are reading in to it too much!
You need to realise shes probably getting over her previous relationship.|||Yeah you need to be sure before you do anything that she was talking about you on BBM and not her ex. Why not casually ask her if she was ok last night in regards to her updates? If it was about her ex surely she'd just tell you? She obviously seems happy that you're not going too far away by putting the :) but whether that is just as a friend or something more only you can find that out!!! We women work in mysterious ways!! Good luck with it all!|||well if she is not happy bout you leaving then ask her if she would like to go with you or say NO to the job|||she's relieved you aren't leaving far....and she likes you as more then a friend|||I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
10th Grade: As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so-called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair. I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes, she had missed the day before. As I handed them to her, she said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I wanted her to know that I don鈥檛 want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
11th Grade: The phone rang; it was her on the other end. She was in tears, mumbling on and about how her love had broken her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn鈥檛 want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she were mine. After two hours, a Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
12th Grade: The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date sick," she said. "He's not going to go." Well, I didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, We would go together just as "best friends," so we did. Prom night, after everything was over I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her. She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't think of me like that, and I knew it. Then she said, "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why... A day passed. A week passed. A month passed. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and she cried as I hugged her. Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why... A Few Years Later: I sat in the pews of the church. She was getting married, now. I watched her say, "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said, "You came!" She said, "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek. I wanted to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why...
Funeral: Years passed, and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my "best friend." At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he were mine. But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I wanted to tell him. I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love him, but I'm just too shy. And I don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me. I wish I did too. I thought to myself, and cried|||I think she likes you, and likes you so much she didn't want to hold you back from going away for the job... which is sweet, really. You clearly make each other happy, hence all the smiley faces when talking. :)
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